Thursday, February 11, 2016

Brave Love

February 10, 2016 Journal Entry by Michelle

Am I brave enough?
Brave
enough
to do what God has asked of me?
Am I Brave enough to love... a dangerous love that may not ever be returned...
Awkward, uneasy, unoffended love.
Expensive love:
the heart-in-your-throat-and-I-can't-breathe- kind of love.
That love that would reveal I am nothing more than powerless.
Vulnerable...
Exposing my own hungry, tired, fearful self
with no quick fixes, but quick-responses
to a world
that hurts and tears open, raw.
Broken-hearted love.
Powerless,

YES, powerless,

but.....

Hopeful.

The brave love of
one
who is filled with hope.
Perhaps that kind of brave, hopeful love,
can let the heart ache, but not brake
because it is beating so hard in my chest
through silent tears of

Halleluiah.

God, please let me be brave enough. That I would always feel that
heart-
beat... heart-
beat. That
wonderful God-given heart-
beat.
And I praise you for your never-ending
heart-
beat... heart
for me.
That brave. dying on the cross for me.
That unoffended love for me.
Won't you please help me be
brave?